Captivated Me

I think too much.  I took the MCAT more than one week ago, and I still catch myself trying to count the questions I may have answered wrong and use that value to obtain some kind of idea about what my score will be.  My sister is fixing to go into labor, and I am trying to strategize an almost minute-by-minute outline for how I’ll get to the hospital if I’m at work, or out with a friend, or in Amery visiting my other sister when I get the call that my new niece/nephew is coming into the world.

Anyone with me?  I know I’m not alone here.  We think and plan, we strategize, analyze, criticize (mostly ourselves), deduce, and otherwise imbue our minds with stressful matters over which we have very little control.  If we do have a say in the matter, that’s another question.  But if it is out of our hands entirely, I submit that we need review our process of analysis (i.e. icksnay the process through and through, or at least tone it down significantly).  For me, this takes prayer.  Prayer with a concerted effort to pause and redirect my thinking towards more important, pleasant, and encouraging things in my life – faith, family, friends, hope, you get the idea.  The simplest of blessings are often those that save me from myself.

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Be still my soul, my mind, my heart,

From morning light to moonshine start.

In rain or sun, through drought and storm,

In winter’s chill and summer’s warm.

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As waters rage and clouds roll in,

Let deepest hope be found in Him.

Have peace when thunder boldly roars;

Strong winds destroy, but love restores.

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In life’s confusion, lift your eyes

To Him whose hands crafted the skies.

For He has conquered every fear;

He calms the seas and dries each tear.

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Written 02/2013

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